Its been awhile

So yea looking back wow its been couple months since I posted anything and so much has changed.

Where to start....

Oh yeah I got laid off. Six years of busting my hump for this company and they just let me go. The thing was I was not pissed off at first of course I felt more like shit for other reasons. Like I failed. How can I look into people eyes and tell them I failed. I know people say that is not the case and I agree but its how I feel or felt maybe part of my still feels this way. It always will.

This is not my first job, I have worked in many places. But this job was different even if I didnt like some of the people I worked with. In a way I grew up here in my mind. I learned so much how I think I how should act that I got comfortable here. That was my problem I think that I got to comfortable that part of me felt almost untouchable. Especially my position and who I worked for.

Right now now I am employed at a temp agency and currently working back at my old company not the say department but same building. I try to come in and avoid running into anyone who I worked with. And this position I am at isnt anything to talk about. I doubt anything is going to happen here and I in a way I am glad it is only going to be for just this one week.

What I dont like right now is just the uncertainty of the it all. The economy sucks and everywhere I turn there is someone else who lost there job.

What happen to this country? If you go back in time and show the people of two generations ago how this country is do things they would think it is the end of the world.

I was fired not because of my work performance but because my position was costing the company to much money. So then if I was a fuck up and my job I still would have lost it? In the end no matter how I look at it, it is always going to end the same way.

My name is Gabriel Candia and I am unemployed. I do not know what my future holds...and that is what scares me the most right now.